My Sufferer, My Maan Last Part

Last Part

Geet rushed along with Meera and Dadi towards the ICU but her feet almost receded as she didn’t have the heart to even open the door seeing her best friend pricked with so many needles and machines as her consciousness blamed her to have tortured him so brutally. She looked at Dadi as her grieving heart begged her, seeking her permission as to whether her guilty heart had the right to even see him as her soul declared her his culprit.

 

Dadi blinked her eyes as if understanding her dilemma, the torn between her heart and soul assuring her that her heart was right and urging her to open the door and meet her Maan.

 

 

As Geet rushed inside she died a thousand deaths to see how cruelly, how mercilessly, how heartlessly she had tormented his divine soul day in and day out for months together. Tears rolled down her eyes as she witnessed his bruised and battered body. His forehead, stomach, hands and neck were badly bandaged while his chest, back and legs bore the bruises of her relentless aggression over those three torturous months.

 

 

She fell down on her knees as tears flooded her eyes as her soul cursed her, as it blamed her for ruining his pure, true, divine and selfless soul. Her consciousness mocked and jeered at her that he was paying the ultimate price for unconditionally and selflessly loving a rotten piece of shit like her who devastated, butchered and destroyed the one person who truly lived for her, who loved her beyond the world, who was suffering no end due to her worthless self.

 

Tears rolled down Dadi’s cheek to see Maan all bandaged like that but her heart went out for the pain, the grief, the agony her daughter and his Jaan, their Geet was undergoing. She held Geet’s shoulders not able to see her breaking down like that and gently raised her.

 

Geet (looked questioningly at Dadi that how could Dadi still feel for her after what all she did with Maan. Dadi softly shook her head wiping Geet’s tears, assuring her that it wasn’t her fault, that she wasn’t even in her senses. But how was Geet’s heart and soul to forgive herself for so heartlessly murdering his soul): Nahi Dadi, mere gunhah maafi ke layak nahi hai (and she howled in uncontrollable agony looking at his plight, his dying state as fresh tears poured down her eyes. Her heart could bear the pain no more as she fell in Dadi’s legs) Yeh maine kya kar diya Dadi, yeh mujse kya ho gaya… How could I torture him so inhumanly… how… could… I… (she hiccuped just not able to bear the burden of her sins)

(No Dadi, my sins cannot be forgiven. (and she howled in uncontrollable agony looking at his plight, his dying state as fresh tears poured down her eyes. Her heart could bear the pain no more as she fell in Dadi’s legs) What have I done Dada, what has happened by my hands… How could I torture him so inhumanly… how… could… I…(she hiccuped just not able to bear the burden of her sins))

 

 

Dadi (lifting her up gently and wiping her tears, kissing her forehead, as tears brimmed her own eyes): Nahi meri bachi, yeh sab toh uski marji thi (she said pointing towards the heaven) Jo hua woh sab Babaji ki marzi se hua, Beti… you weren’t at fault (but Geet’s tears were nowhere to stop. Dadi really wanted to reach out to her, to heal her and she also knew that time was running out for Maan, Geet really needed to calm down so that she could call out to him because she was their only hope left to revive him) Acha tumhe saza chahiye na (and Geet nodded in between tears begging to be punished, yes she deserved the worst possible punishment, asi saza ki dekhane walo ki rooh tak kaap jaye) Toh beta tumhari saza yeh hai ki tumhe apne aap ko maaf karna hoga Maan ke liye (Geet was truly bewildered what kind of a punishment was this) kyunki uski toh rooh bhi tumhe is haal mein dekh kar tarap rahi hogi, woh toh tumhari aanko mei ek aasu bhi bardasht nahi kar sakta, beta (a tear escaped Dadi’s eyes while Geet was truly taken aback as she realized the endless depth of his undying, unconditional and truly divine love) Beta tum Maan ho hasta, muskurata hua dekna chahati ho na (and Geet nodded amidst tears, yes her heart truly wanted to see her savior happy, it yearned to beg forgiveness for her deeds, her sins, her mistakes, to bring a smile on his face, to see him alive and full of life, like he always was since the first day she met him in college) Toh phir tahe dil se apne dost ho pukaro, uski toh rooh bhi tumhari guzarish, tumhari fariyaad ko unsuna nahi kar payegi. Woh tumhari khwaish poori karne ke liye is duniya se toh kya, Bhagwan se bhi lar parega… uske ek baar pukar ke toh dekho, beta…

(No my child, it is all HIS wish (she said pointing towards the heaven) Whatever happened happened by Babaji’s wish, Beti… you weren’t at fault (but Geet’s tears were nowhere to stop. Dadi really wanted to reach out to her, to heal her and she also knew that time was running out for Maan, Geet really needed to calm down so that she could call out to him because she was their only hope left to revive him) Ok, you want punishment right (and Geet nodded in between tears begging to be punished, yes she deserved the worst possible punishment, such a dreadful punishment that souls of people flinch in pain) then beta your punishment is that you have to forgive yourself for Maan’s sake (Geet was truly bewildered what kind of a punishment was this) because he soul would be wincing in pain seeing you in such a condition, he can’t bear to see even a tear in your eyes, beta (a tear escaped Dadi’s eyes while Geet was truly taken aback as she realized the endless depth of his undying, unconditional and truly divine love) Beta you want to see Maan smiling right (and Geet nodded amidst tears, yes her heart truly wanted to see her savior happy, it yearned to beg forgiveness for her deeds, her sins, her mistakes, to bring a smile on his face, to see him alive and full of life, like he always was since the first day she met him in college) Then call out to your friend with all your heart, his soul can also not un-hear you prayer, your request. To fulfill your wish he will be ready to fight not only in this world but with God too Bhagwan… just call out to him once, beta…)

 

Geet was truly speechless at his absolutely divine love and Dadi left her alone with Maan as she slowly left the ICU room as tears rolled out her eyes at the infinite pain and suffering her children were undergoing as her heart begged Babaji to save Maan, to grant her grandson his life so that he could heal his Jaan and she prayed to HIM to shower her children with all the happiness in this world.

 

 

Geet slowly gathered the courage as she crept towards her best friend’s lifeless body even as her soul blamed, ridiculed, cursed and accused her that she wasn’t even worthy of his divine love, in fact woh toh uske paro ki dhul ke bhi layak nahi thi (she wasn’t even worthy of his feet), that she should be burnt alive in hell, tormented till her body begged mercy, made to bleed till the last drop of blood dripped from her body. But she somehow gathered herself as she knelt beside him.

 

Geet (begging her Babaji to spare her best friend): Babaji, mei janti hoon maine jo gunhah, jo paap kiye hai unke liye mujhe jitni bhi saza di jaye, jitna bhi tarpaya jaye woh kaam hai. Meri rooh ko toh aisi saza milni chahiye ki kabhi bhi koi bhi aisi galti doharah na sake, ki kabhi koi itna pyaar karne wale shaks ko yun tarpa na sake. Mei janti hoon ki mujhe aap se kuch bhi maangne ka koi bhi haq nahi hai, maire paapo ke baad toh bilkul bhi nahi par phir bhi meri aap se haat jor kar yeh aakari fariyaad hai ki mere Maan ki zindagi baksh do… please Babaji, I beg of you. (her heart screamed in uncontrollable agony as tears rolled down her cheeks)

(Babaji, I know that for my mistakes, my sins any punishment is less. My soul should be bestowed with such a harsh punishment that no one dares to commit such a crime again, that no one ever torments such a loving soul again. I know that I have no right to ask for anything, especially after the sins I have committed. But I fold my hands in front of you and beg you to fulfill my last desire to spare my Maan… please Babaji, I beg of you.)

 

 

Her heart ached to see him lifeless like that paying the price for loving her limitlessly and she grabbed his hand in hers as she gently touched her cheek, tears rolling down.

 

Geet (holding on to him, wanting desperately to bring him back): kyun karte ho aap mujh manhoos se itna pyaar ki aapne apni jaan ki bhi parwah nahi kari… kyun Maan kyun… mei toh is layak bhi nahi… mai toh aap ke beintehah pyaar ke kabhil bhi nahi. (her heart wept blood to see him slowly dying in that hospital bed) Pata nahi mei aapko kabhi pyaar kar paungi bhi ya nahi… pata nahi mei us kabil hoon bhi ya nahi… (she didn’t know if after the death of Dev she could ever love anyone anymore. Yes she truly respected Maan and was blessed to have a best friend like him who cared, loved and understood her beyond words but could she ever fall in love again? Or rather did her heart have the guts left in it to love someone anymore? And was she even worthy of Maan’s  truly divine love) Par phir bhi Maan please come back, I need my best buddy… (her heart cried in unbearable pain)Please… I can’t promise that I can reciprocate even a fraction of your truly divine love but please… I beg of you please come back… apni Geet ke liye… (and she completed broke down as she pleaded him to come back) please Maan … I beg of you…

(Why do you love an unworhty person like me so much that you didn’t even care about your life for me… why Maan why… I am not even worthy… I am just not worthy of your truly divine love (her heart wept blood to see him slowly dying in that hospital bed) I don’t know if I would be able to ever love you… I don’t know if I am even worthy to love you… (she didn’t know if after the death of Dev she could ever love anyone anymore. Yes she truly respected Maan and was blessed to have a best friend like him who cared, loved and understood her beyond words but could she ever fall in love again? Or rather did her heart have the guts left in it to love someone anymore? And was she even worthy of Maan’s  truly divine love) But still Maan please come back, I need my best buddy… (her heart cried in unbearable pain)Please… I can’t promise that I can reciprocate even a fraction of your truly divine love but please… I beg of you please come back… for your Geet… (and she completed broke down as she pleaded him to come back) please Maan … I beg of you…)

 

She called out to him with all her heart as her soul begged him to open his eyes. How could his soul not accept her honest confession and prayer as his body trembled a little as if his soul finally returned back in his lifeless body and he slowly blinked his eyes.

 

He died a thousand deaths to see her state, tears pouring endlessly down her hazel eyes and she wept uncontrollably holding his hand begging him to come back.

 

Maan (his voice laden with her infinite pain): Geet…

 

And Geet smiled amidst tears hearing his voice as he opened his eyes, she was truly overwhelmed and thankful to Babaji to have granted her wish. But soon her horrendous deeds crowded in front of her eyes as her soul judged her responsible for his plight and she instantly left his hand as her eyes dipped in shame just not able to face him after destroying him so heartlessly, as her heart and soul simply weren’t able to let go of her sins.

 

Maan (his heart wept to see his Jaan in so much pain for absolutely no fault of hers, his soul died to see her so guilty): Geet meri taraf dekho please (Geet please look at me) (he begged her but how her heart to forgive herself, how was she to meet her his eyes after her infinite sins because her heart knew he would easily forgive her rather he would not even blame her, but she knew she was guilty and she was worthy of only punishment and not forgiveness. Thinking so she made up her mind to leave from there just not able to bear the burden of her deeds.)

 

Maan felt as if his heart was being ripped apart from his body as he saw her about to recede and he stretched out his hand in order to hold her back. He winced in pain as he desperately tried to get up to reach out to his Jaan, his Geet. Fresh tears rolled out of her eyes as she immediately turned around hearing him flinch in pain and she rushed to hold him as she gently laid him back on the bed.

 

Geet (totally forgetting her guilt as worry for his health overtook her heart, scolding him): Maan, aap yeh kya kar rahe ho, abhi abhi toh aap ko hosh aaya hai. (really worried) Aap ko bahut dard ho raha hoga na (he nodded slightly making a baby sad face and she flinched as if feeling his pain) Aap chup chap lete rahiye, I will just call Meera (Maan’s heart danced a little to see his Jaan’s infinite care for him and a smile touched his lips to have his Geet out of the guilt trip)

(Maan, what are you doing, you have just gained consciousness. (really worried) Is it hurting a lot (he nodded slightly making a baby sad face and she flinched as if feeling his pain) you silently lie down, I will just call Meera (Maan’s heart danced a little to see his Jaan’s infinite care for him and a smile touched his lips to have his Geet out of the guilt trip))

 

Geet rushed to get Meera and Dadi.

 

Geet: Meera, come fast. Maan just gained consciousness and he is really hurting as he tried to get up.

 

Meera and Dadi smiled amidst tears to hear that he gained consciousness and rushed along with Geet to Maan’s room.

 

Meera: How are you feeling now Maan?

 

Maan: Much better Meera.

 

Geet: Nahi, nahi don’t listen to him he is lying, give him that pain killer injection he was really hurting.

 

Maan(gulped hard): Injection??? Nahi nahi Geet when did I say that it was hurting.

 

 

Geet (was like :O): Juth, abhi abhi toh (Lie, just now) you told me it was hurting. (Dadi and Meera realized he must be faking it to divert her guilt) Don’t listen to him Meera, he is lying.

 

And poor Maan made a baby cribbing face “injection” while Meera and Dadi giggled at his plight. And as his Geet ordered poor Maan got the injection.

 

Precap:

Next will be Epilogue

Will Geet be able to reciprocate his unconditional love?

 

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3 thoughts on “My Sufferer, My Maan Last Part

  1. ayesha says:

    thanks GOD ap ny bhi humien update dy dia thanks awsoome update

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